Moved Out!!

So I totally moved out of mom's place, I got a new job and lost it and Allison(my sister) broke up with her stupid ex Tyler! I got a new job at Matt's place (One touch, a call center) but that didn't work out so well... but at least he's doing good! I am currently looking for a new job while still hosting parties on the weekends for now. Like I said I moved out,into a really nice apartment. It has a gym, a laundry mat which is pretty close, a close dumpster(thankfully we're far enough away that we can't smell it!) and a lot of cute animals around. Allison, Matt, Ryan and Allison's new boyfriend Eddy are living with me right now. Eddy is now looking for a job as well, we were working at the same place but they were making cuts and unfortunately I was new and he wasn't making enough sales.... Still wish certain people talked to me would be nice to talk to someone but I guess its ok, once he realizes his stupid girlfriend doesn't know what she's doing I'm sure we can at least be friends again... I kinda miss him as a friend and I really miss being around his Family. Gigi was amazing and his dad was awesome to hang out with! :) My number is the same so, you know who you are just text me! :)

A little after a year and I'm still happy :)

So December 18th was my 1st anniversary with Matt. :) Allison(my sister) and Tyler(her boyfriend) had their 1st anniversary on Christmas. 2014 here I come! Last year just seemed to fly by, its amazing that its been a whole year since I visited Oregon. I miss it there, it was truly beautiful! :) So before the year was up I made a new friend, his name is Jonathan.. He's a pretty awesome friend. What scares me about him is that he really likes me and I've told him I just want to be friends. No more than that, I already have Matt. It still seems like he's hung up on me :\ I really don't like this, I feel as if he will stop looking for someone else because of me. Honestly he's toned it down a lot but still.... I know the heart what the heart wants but in his case I can't give him what his heart wants. Even worse is that we work together and no one would be willing to switch days with me. I'm starting to feel like the only option is it just keep my mouth shut and ignore it. Sad part is I know I can't just ignore it and it go away because I doubt it will... Anyway so I'm working 3 days total a week sometimes 4 at work now. Which is better than nothing! I'm waiting till I have at least a full year under my belt before I try o find another job. That way it looks better on me, and hey if I can keep the job I have and get another one then I will. I just want money so I can move out already. I still plan on getting a car first though. I still have Zero to look after and now Allison has Zelda and if they need to go to the vet we have to be able to get them there. Plus we need a car to get groceries. :) <3 <3 Anyway I'm sure I'll write eventually! and even if no one reads this at least I feel better by writing! :D

Another long day :)

So today went by so slowly!!! :) but I'm glad its pretty much over. Allison came back yesterday and it was amazing! :) I'm sad to say she will be leaving again in a week. :( Oh well, Zero sure did miss Allison though. Zelda was pretty happy but not nearly as bad as Zero! So work was pretty awesome today! Slow, but awesome. Two different people told me that I made their day, that made me feel great, So glad I switched departments! Well seems like everything has returned to normal, unfortunatly Allie has to leave but its for a good reason. I wish I could go but I went last winter so I guess its her turn. I really don't have much to talk about, I feel like I've been really busy but I guess it's mostly because of work. Right, um Matt got an interview yesterday and they said they'll be calling him back for a 2nd interview! :) So hopefully he gets this job. Its only part time but we need the money. I'm so ready for a car! After that I'll be ready to move! :) For now I'll just have to take it one step at a time but I have plans for when he gets a job and we have more money. I'm so excited for the future hopefully this works out in our favor! --Suicide Doll

Just another rainy day in Florida :)

So Matt came over today, which was great! :) I love seeing him! Oh and I guess you could say I got a promotion, I'm now working front desk at work. I was a birthday party hostess which only made 4.77 plus tips. Doesn't sound that bad until you realize I was only working like 1 to 2 days a week, and that was IF there were any parties. Now I'm making minimum wage which to most people isn't a big deal, but after being a hostess for 3 years I needed the change! So far I've trained for 6 days and I really like it. :) On another note my sister is in Europe right now with a group called People to People. She's been gone for like 2 or 3 days (she's visiting around there for a total of 20 days) I totally miss her! Things are kinda boring around here with her here. I mean yea Matt comes over and its great but once he leaves I have no one to hang out with! Once Allison comes back she stays here at home for a week then leaves again to visit our close friends (which are like family) in Oregon. When she does that she won't be back for like a month. I really hope she's having fun over there while I take care of her Boxer puppy Zelda! I can't wait to see her and I know her boyfriend feels the same, he doesn't seem to know what to do with himself while she's been gone. :D So long story short the past few weeks have been crazy but still awesome! Soon I plan on getting a license and a car :) which I've been very patient with. After that I plan on moving in with Matt, we're so ready to actually start our lives. You know I've been thinking a lot lately about my past, present and future and I must say I haven't always done things right or the easy way but I'm glad to be where I am. Even if I have occasional problems with my mother or grandfather. My past make me gratful for my present and my future gives me something to look forward to. <3 I couldn't ask for more. In fact all the money in the world couldn't make me a happier person! I'm just glad I have the people in my life that I have now because without them I would hae nothing to look forward to. At the same time I'm thankful for everyone in my past, Even the ones who cheated, abused me, lied to me, stabbed me in the back and anything else bad I forgot to mention. I only thank them becauses they showed me who I don't need and who I don't want to be. In a way they made me who I am, without them I wouldn't be this happy or gratful! Oh and Zero (my dog) is doing great with Zelda (Allison's dog) they both are so happy together! Zero is still as silly as ever and Zelda is surprisingly lazy for a pup. I love both of them and Zero truely is my hero! I can't tell you how many times this dog has been there for me when I was depressed! <3 Zero is one of the smartest dogs I know and I'm glad I got him! So as you can tell (if you're even still reading) I've been REALLY busy, between seseing my boyfriend, working, doing stuff around the house and taking care of Zero and Zelda I haven't had much time for anything else. Oh and to my friend Joseph just in case you were able to read this, Thank you! You're like my only reader... I think. O_o --Suicide Doll <---Me and Matt I love this man so much <3 <3 <3 pictures of the babies! <3 Zero:

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Update 2013!

So I left Jacob and right about now he's probably with his ex. I can't say much, Matt and I and now going almost 6 months strong! :) This time is much better, He's really an amazing person who accepts me for who I am! <3 I wait like 4 months before getting a new boyfriend the same can't be said for Jacob, although I do hope he's happy. I tried staying in contact but his girlfirend is a bit over dramatic and so he won't talk to me. Tis sad because we could have been great friends! She probably thinks I'll change my mind or something and try to steal him but what she doesn't realize is that I'm actually happy with Matt. Anyway so Allison(sister) finally got herself a puppy. My mother's friend bred her dogs and so she got one. Zelda is settling in nicely and Zero loves to play with her! Oh and Allison got a boyfriend, he asked on christmas! How sweet right? They have their ups and downs but it all works out :). I am also proud to say that as of my last post I got my diploma and Allison graduated too! :) Still applying at places and looking for a better job but I'm happy for the most part right! I can't wait till I move out though my room is getting a bit cramped! And Jacob if you're reading this I hoppe you're doing well... Anytime you need a friend just contact me you know my cell number it hasn't changed! :) Not that Jacob is reading anyway but just in case right? Even if he was reading I doubt I would ever get a call! anyway I guess there's nothing left to tell... Not much has happened in 2013 yet, but the year isn't up and you nevre know!! --Suicide Doll

Eggs! bunnies! and choclate oh my!

ok so today is Easter!! :D 1st Easter with Jacob too. I think it's the best one so far. later we're going to his grandparents to have dinner, the great thing is im on spring break so no school tomorrow! but we are going to the beach tomorrow soo yay! :D we're gunna have lots of fun. me and Jacob are doing good :D this week is gunna be great :)

--Suicide Doll

I do not see why man should not be just as cruel as nature.

ok so I finally got mi permit :] yay! and ive drove twice and no there wasn't an accident! oh and ive decided im finally going to quit smoking to exceptions this time! I know jacob hates that smell of it and its really hard on him :\

so Ive got a headache and im sleepy but im waiting on a phone call :D which ill eventually get >:o anyway I know mi cousin is about to be reading this so... UR AN ASS!!! idk how u got so many followers.. eh doesnt matter cuz guess what? no one would even care about mi blog so :P and yes i did just stick mi tonge out at u! >_< --Suicide Doll