you need everyone's eyes just to feel seen

LOL I just heard the funniest shit, so apparently whore had a child oh and im in school and so far its boring. ok except for lunch thats funny as hell. Oh and I have a new friend :) he seems nice and I totally pretended to be Allison and got our mom to pick us up from school. :P I didn't miss much, i got out of school in 6th period... I mean what can I say I hate buses... they make meh angry!

Its mostly the obnoxious people on the bus their retarded. And no offense but most of them are Mexican which need to go eat a bar of soap idk much Spanish but i do know when people are cursing up a storm.. but thats high school right? When it isn't boring, its just strange or entertaining but at least I don't have to worry about mi ex showing up to shoot meh :)

September 7th is the court date.. :o I'm a little afraid to see him after all the shit he put me through.. I don't know why it scares me so much. I used to be afraid of nothing, I cared about nothing and then Jacob had to come alone >:)

lol i guess I should be thanking him cause he turned mi life around and showed me what it was like to be loved by a person outside of the family someone
I could show mi true self to and know that he wont judge me :)

I love knowing that he truly cares for me and not about the stupid shit >:) i love him more than mi life and the world put together and times like a million :D i'd do anything for him and all he has to do is ask...

but anyway soooo I've gone all day wifout a smoke and it surks... a lot! i just gotta wait til Thursday... I can soooo totally make it....... nvm no i wont who am i trying to kid? I'm gunna snap and start yelling I can feel it now. this is so stressful. oh well I'll survive some how :o anyway so tomorrow I got school ima have to wake up at 5:30 which really isnt that bad but mi book bag is heavy so it really surks... but anyway ima go sooo ttyl