When I think of you I don't feel so alone..

Okay so I woke up this morning and I didn't know what to do with myself sooo I watched a movie I haven't seen in forever It's called lemony snicket's a series of unfortunate events. I cried when Violet and her brother we're talking because her brother said "But this is different they aren't in Europe this time, and they aren't coming back." and for those who haven't seen the movie it's about three kids who become orphans due to a fire that took their house and parents.

In the end they find out who it is and stuff so it's all good but still that part made me cry. Also in the end when they went back and found the letter that never came. Because their parents had sent a letter when they went to Europe but it got lost in the mail. It was so sad :[ plus today is 9/11 which by the way I made a special picture to put at the end in honor of those who died :[ It isn't much but it's something.

I can still remember that day. I was 7 it scared me but what scared me more was I can remember picturing people jumping from the buildings... I saw the videos and I was afraid not for myself but for those people... By the way in case anyone is wondering I live in Florida. They played the news while I was in school.. at first I was confused because I didn't know what was going on but as soon as I realized what was happening I felt this sting.

I think thats when I really started to realize how messed up this world is.. but anyways so this morning I was talking to my mom and she made a magnet joke >_> ok you may be wondering wtf I mean but when I was 13 I ate 2 magnets that were the the kid's toy magnetics and my mom was on her honeymoon. My neighbor was watching me and my sister and we were playing twister. I stopped playing and ran to the bathroom cause I felt sick. I spent the whole night puking. >_> Everything I drank came right back up. And it was hard for me to sleep cause I was in pain. The worst pain I think i've ever felt..

Yet no one took me to the hospital -_- My mom didn't even know until my aunt told her when she got home from her honeymoon. Oh and my aunt was playing poker with her ex husband's parent's.. I told my mom that it wasn't funny and the only reason I ate those magnets was because I wanted to know what would happen. Well I found out the hard way... so yea.. but anyways I need to find something to do because I'm bored and a little depressed :'[ I miss my boy friend.