Saturday, September 19, 2009

Fight Fair

Okay so I've been going through a lot of problems so I couldn't really update lets just say can't wait till Matt comes back from his mom's house!! My uncle is really starting to scare me like last night I was up til 3 some thing in the morning talking to my bestfriend and like 5 minutes after I got off the phone and I was trying to go to sleep he walks in.

For one I can understanding checking on me and stuff but no he walked to the edge of my bed and told me that he knew I was awake. He proceeded to say basically he wanted to fuck me and I told him to get the fuck away from me or else I'm going to punch him. He walked out and I locked my door...

I cried until 4:30 or 5 and then I fell asleep. I want my boyfriend to come back cause I know he would protect me, I want to tell my Aunt but I'm afraid it'll ruin their marriage and I'll get blamed! November 3rd they'll be married for 8 years... I don't want to leave an all cause aside from my uncle doing that I like it here a lot better than my mom's and my boyfriend isn't the only reason either..

I just don't know I'm afraid that if I say something my aunt will hate me.. I don't want her to.. And then my whole family would find out and I would be right in the middle taking shit because I didn't say something sooner. I just don't know what to do and it's really stressing me out and lately I've been more depressed than usual because I don't know what to do. He hasn't touched me or raped me but he's tried to

touch me I just told him to stop fucking trying to touch me. I'm starting to get scared. So I'm asking everyone what should I do? I don't wanna rip apart my family but I don't ant this to continue.. Oh and my aunt is a teacher so if anyone found out could you imagine what would happen!! :'[

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  2. I've been in this situation, but a little different. I don't know if I've said it here or not, but my sister's husband (at the time, boyfriend) was drunk one night and we were both on the couch, playing video games. He bit the back of my neck and the started touching me inappropriately. He kept trying to touch my breasts, and then whole time I was telling him no while pushing his hands away. At time I was fourteen, so I was around your age when it happened. I was also depressed, so that situation didn't help much either.

    Three years later, I told my boyfriend about it. He was the first person that I ever told about the incident. I still have yet to tell my sister because of a "fallout" that happened between the two that ended with, "If I ever see you with him, I will disown you as a sister." Even though I told her I wasn't interested in him, she kept saying she'd disown me.

    Ever since the "fallout" my sister would get angry if I was ever alone with her husband, even if we were to talk. Nonetheless, I talked to him on their wedding night and told him that he has to tell her since it was driving me crazy without her knowing. He told me he'd never tell her and that it should be forgotten about.

    I still have trouble coming to terms with the incident, but not as much as before. I know my sister and I have this feeling that she'll blame me for it all. Hell, she even blamed for his grandmother's death. I still wish I had told her the night it happened, but I shoved it into the back of my mind and hoped to forget about it.

    My advice: Don't do what I did. DON'T push it into the back of your head and let it stay there. It'll resurface again later in life. I don't know how your aunt is, but telling her about it might be the best thing. Tell her that your uncle is scaring you and you're not liking it. Tell her that he told you that he wanted to "fuck" you. You're scared out of your mind, afraid to even be alone with him, it seems. She shouldn't blame you, nor should anyone else.

    If you have to, go to an authority figure. With being depressed, it will hit more and if it goes too far, it might cause psychological problems. It's better to tell her than to never tell her.

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  3. I think you should tell your aunt. You can't ignore this and if you try to, I'm really afraid that he will rape you eventually. I don't want that to happen to you! No matter what happens with your aunt, your family can't be mad at you for his mistakes. You didn't do anything wrong, so don't feel like you're the one ruining their marriage. He's the one screwing everything up with his out of line behavior. I don't know your aunt, so I don't know how she'll take it. But be prepared for her to be defensive of him and not believe you. That might not happen, but just be prepared in case it does. No matter what, you need to tell her, and if she won't fix the situation, it might be in your best interest to move. I really hope things work out for you, I can tell this is really weighing down on you. Keep your head up and be strong, you seem like a great girl and a nice person. Good luck!!

    --Konnor

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